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Weblogging on and on

I've been wondering when blogging and really anything online like Twitter or other bad online habits turned into a "should I or shouldn't I" instead of what it was really meant to be in the first place, an ongoing record of daily events and some thoughts and opinions along the way.

That's what early blogging was like. The idea of sharing was more than enough motivation to come back day after day and the number of those reading was through the roof. But somewhere along the way, it became kind of a drag. Maybe it was the spammers and then the trolls. Maybe it felt pointless throwing words into the eternally filling void as more and more people tried their hand at blogging. Was it fun or or did I think I was special being one of a few and then it wasn't fun anymore when the room got crowded?

I don't know. All I do know is how nice I think it would be (I might be wrong) to have more personal history in these posts to go back and look at.

Maybe I am being too nostalgic. That happens at times.

The blog, like most things I do, kept getting interrupted by thinking too much into all of this (all of this being the internet and my place in it) and that is what derailed me again and again and as I read other blogs, I know I'm not the only one. I just came upon another blog that pretty much died out years ago and the last post was about taking a Twitter break like that is something you must declare so people don't think you've fallen off the face of the Earth or so your absence doesn't rock the foundation of society. Spoiler - it won't.

It's so common now to take breaks that there is no point in declaring it and no one will notice anyway. I go through most weekends staying as far away from apps as possible and I do this partially to clear my head and partially because I just need a little silence every so often.

This thing has changed, rebooted, faded, reappeared, etc. so many times that it boggles my mind and feels a tad pathetic. There should be two buttons here, on and off, and neither button matters a whole lot in the grand scheme of things. The internet chugs on with or without my posts.

Sunday

Waiting outside the grocery store. Not going inside so I won’t be tempted to buy things I don’t need. 

Distractions

The perfect
laptop
bag
notebook
pencil
idea
coffee shop
window seat
weather

The pursuit of or the wanting of these and many other "perfect" things is futile. They are all distractions to keep me from making things. 

I have had or experienced a lot of the items above over the years and have made very little. 

It's not the laptop or the bag or the notebook etc. that is not just right. It's an excuse. 

Or maybe it's a distraction to keep me from accepting the fact that I don't need to make something in order to be happy or fulfilled or to have meaning.

Or maybe I am trying to avoid admitting that I don't know what I want to make or even if I did, I don't know how to make it. 

Podcast brain

I have podcast brain and it sometimes ruins listening to music.

I'll explain.

If I hear a song and I think, "I would like to share that on the podcast," then I have to Shazam it immediately and it goes into THE LIST. My Shazam list is currently at 3,396 songs. I have songs already in folders for the next two podcasts.

But, I have not recorded this week. And yesterday I heard a song and thought about how nice it would be not to have the impulse to open Shazam and think about sharing it and I realized that this way of thinking, this podcast brain, is ruining my enjoyment of music a bit.

And then I tried to remember what life was like when I wasn't curating and sharing myself - my songs, my pictures, my thoughts.

Just living. Just existing.

Winter finally arrived


It will only stay for one day, though. Back up to 40 tomorrow, 50 the next day. 

It's a good day to stay inside and watch the snowflakes fall.

Hitting the brakes


I got through the wasted weekend and came out the other side of it Monday morning realizing that I had to hit the brakes and do a bit of reevaluation on some things I was wasting my time on. 

How nice it is to finally be in a place mentally to be able to take a look around and put away what is not working and focus on what is. 

I literally put away some things after heading over to Walmart Monday at lunch to get some totes (50% off post-Christmas! Woo!) so I could clean out a couple of closets and store so things while heaving some stuff into the trash. Out of sight, out of mind but not gone to the help center just in case some of these items are needed again in the near-future. That's part of my ongoing rule to not be hasty about getting rid of things.

I also put away my iPad and got back to reading but sadly ended up with another 3 star book. The local library reopened from their remodel Monday so maybe I will get over there and find something good to read. Plus, I have a book I have been wanting to read for a while on the way via snail mail.

I don't know if I've been in the mire for months and just lately have the vision to see where I am along with the motivation to get out or if I just hit a bit of a post-holiday rut the last two weeks but it's been nice to clear my mind and sort of reboot over the last three days. I am hoping to stay focused next weekend and not come out of next Sunday thinking it was a waste.

Still here

Yesterday's crazy weather came and went and what was left behind is a pretty nice day.

It looks inviting but it's still a tad too damp and a little too chilly to sit out on the deck. 

Oh, what a wasted weekend. I've been tired and unmotivated all weekend. Maybe it's because I finished an absolute drudgery of a book that I've been procrastinating getting into another one. I should and could be reading right now. I have a hot cup of coffee right beside me along with my Kindle but I pulled out the Asus Transformer and decided to divert myself with the blog instead. 

I'm also tired. After a solid two weeks of getting good sleep, I've had two nights in a row where I've gotten barely any. I think I have been keeping my brain too busy as I've approached bedtime. Youtube videos. Football last night. My mind runs and runs. I woke up this morning completely convinced that it was Monday and I instantly felt the Monday dread but then when I realized that "NO! It's Sunday, Fool!" I couldn't get back to sleep. 

I did get a new toy Friday night. My local Walmart was clearing out the latest Legends Flashback for $20. It's a plug and play video game system similar to the Atari Flashback 9 I bought last year. My Atari Flashback 9 is great because it has an SD card slot and plays all Atari 2600 ROMS. The Legends Flashback is great because it also has an SD card slot and it plays all NES and Genesis ROMS and most SNES ones also (most but not all). Plus, I can just swap the same HDMI cable, power cable, and SD card back and forth between the units. Easy peasy.

I guess that's it. Another weekend WASTED. 48 hours gone forever (almost - there are still 8 hours of the weekend to go as I write this but I don't have high hopes of accomplishing a thing in those remaining 8 hours either).

Stormy weather

Storms ahead!

First, there are always storms on the internet and you get to choose whether or not you want to participate in them. I choose not to although I come close from time to time. For example, the tweet I saw which was a video of people in London whining about the Prince Harry situation. I wanted to contribute the fact that the man already lost his mother and what more does he need to sacrifice but what good would tweeting that do and then, where would it stop? Should I put my two cents' worth in about what is going on in Iran and Iraq also and, yet again, what good would it do?

Tweets don't change minds.

Tweets are not actions.

Voting is an action.

There is no action I can take about the Prince Harry deal aside from sending him a card that says "Good for you" but Hallmark Cards have gotten so expensive and I wouldn't know where to send it anyway.

I know. Blogging is just about as pointless as Tweeting. Well, just about. At least blog entries seem a bit more permanent. Tweets are lost in the feed just about as soon as you click send. Plus, there are always the Fake Amy's out there waiting to troll you.

Second, real storms are coming here tomorrow and Saturday. We're talking storms that we don't normally see until spring. Of course, it is supposed to be 71 degrees Saturday so maybe it is already spring here. The good news is that they have moved the worst of this a bit farther away from us for now. It's still a day to pay attention to the weather but hopefully we won't have to take cover.


Big accomplishments

OK, not really, but I have accomplished a few things in the last 24 hours, the biggest being finally removing the post-Christmas pile that was still inhabiting part of the living room floor that consisted of boxes for gifts that we wanted to make sure were functioning properly and a few odds and ends destined for the thrift store since they were replaced with newer items.

Ah, empty space!

I also finally put up some Christmas lights that were hiding in the bathroom closet. I can't remember how they got there but they are now in their proper tote in the attic waiting for next November to roll around.

Also on the accomplishment list, I closed Twitter and other apps last night after feeling confident that World War III wasn't going to start (at least last night) and I watched the first episode of  Zoey's Extraordinary Playlist on NBC. I think it has potential. It seems to me to be a risky move for NBC. It's not like anything else on TV since Crazy Ex-Girlfriend went off the air. Of course, I couldn't help thinking back to Cop Rock as I watched last night. Quite a few similarities at times.

Finally, let's end today's post with this spectacular tweet I found of a video of Keanu Reeves spotted eating ice cream.

The scanner emerges from storage

Nothing big to report here today aside from a bit on the radio front. I still haven't gotten the shortwave back out since Christmas Day although it is beside the recliner in case I have some time to listen tonight. But I did get my Uniden BC125AT back out of storage.


It's been in a tote since the summer because there is not much to listen to on there anymore aside from airplanes (which I get a ton of thanks to the Diamond RH77CA antenna) and county fire/rescue. The city services and just about everything else around here has gone digital.

Some warehouses and other businesses in the area can be picked up on here also but you really have to get out with the radio and make the effort to hear those since they are typically low power and this antenna isn't a miracle worker.

Luckily, this scanner fell under my no-eBay rule which means I no longer get rid of radios and gadgets that I think I don't need. I just store them until the bug bites again and for some reason, today it did.

Years ago, most drive-thru's were analog and I even drove to the Hardee's one day about eight years ago to make a video showing off the capabilities of a Radio Shack scanner I had at the time. This was back before podcasting when I was a tad bit more creative video-wise.




First yard work of 2020

I usually don't have any yard work until early March but this fall/winter has been unusually wet and warm so today I had to head to the Home Depot to buy three bags of ground cover to spread across some ground that is eroding away due to all the rain and causing the dogs to come inside with muddy feet.


This is also the first time this year I've had to use my antique wheelbarrow. At our last house, we had a neighbor offer it to me after she got a new one. I have no idea how old this is but I keep spray painting it every few years and it keeps going so I will keep using it until it gives up.


You can tell this tire is quite old. How? It has "Made in U.S.A." on it.

At least I'm not weed eating or, even worse, mowing yet but if this weather doesn't change soon, the mower will be out early this year.

I also had to pull some weeds at the end of the driveway where I discovered a few flowers that normally pop up in spring have already bloomed out.

I got trolled on Twitter today

I have 28 followers and some anonymous troll with over 2,000 followers* (* hardly any of them interact with her at all) decided to poke their virtual nose into one of my Twitter conversations.


My brief interaction with whoever it was gave me a chuckle at lunch and another chuckle while I was picking up the car after an oil change but I still wonder how pitiful it must be to be the kind of person that would search Twitter for people to harass.

Is that all this person has going for them? Do they have no other enjoyment in life? Is this the only communication they have with other human beings? Or, even worse, do they do this while living an otherwise normal, enjoyable life?

This is exactly what I don't like about Twitter but there has obviously been a change in my attitude over time. Just a few months ago, I probably would have just blocked the troll and locked down my account but now I see things like this as minor irritations that don't diminish the value I get from interacting with people I actually know and I can now find the humor in engaging with random idiots hiding behind fake user names.

I'm staying in the game. I shall do my duty to continue to entertain my 28 followers and I shall do this even if the "convo" is public.

First post of the decade

Here we are in 2020. Exciting!


I am back at work today although the short rest of the week won't feel completely normal since a lot of folks are still off and we're still on the holiday schedule. Next week, reality will hit as we go back to normal and the kids return to school and things get quiet again here at the home office.

It's warmish (50 degrees) and rainy today. My mind is already drifting toward spring which would be great minus all of the yard work that comes with it. I know that real winter weather will arrive at some point but I will ignore the idea of it until it shows up in the forecast.

I would like to tell you that I spent a lot of time reading and listening to the shortwave over the past week but nope - it was a blur of errands and time spent in the recliner zoned out with the iPad. I feel like I need to be more productive or at least a bit less unproductive and that's sort of my goal starting today. The holidays are over. It's time to get back on track.