The pursuit of or the wanting of these and many other "perfect" things is futile. They are all distractions to keep me from making things.
I have had or experienced a lot of the items above over the years and have made very little.
It's not the laptop or the bag or the notebook etc. that is not just right. It's an excuse.
Or maybe it's a distraction to keep me from accepting the fact that I don't need to make something in order to be happy or fulfilled or to have meaning.
Or maybe I am trying to avoid admitting that I don't know what I want to make or even if I did, I don't know how to make it.